User blog:.Moonlight/Depression hurts. Part 1.

Most people have a reason to be depressed.. *sigh* Maybe they lost a job or someone, I don't know. *shrug* But one day I woke up and felt like a shitbag. I just laid down on the couch, dealing with my mother. My parents didn't help at all, my "friends" tried making me do yoga. I pulled my muscles and my ADHD wasn't helping at all. My mom tried that Dōterra shit, it didn't work, besides, how the hell is rubbing plant juice on my ass gonna help? It isn't. I just sat in my favorite chair and stared at the wall all day. I tried hunting but it was just sitting in the bushes waiting for something to kill. I went back to tennis but it was just hitting a ball with a racket. Then that's where I because abusive and sadistic. I'd beat the snot out of whoever I felt like, I yelled and smashed stuff. After my dad finally calmed me down, I got grounded. Grounded, just fuck. I thought. That's when I became a bitch.

Me in real life: *goes to the kitchen" My mind: Going to the kitchen? Good, go kill yourself." Me in real life: *gets knife and stabs a fruit* My mind: Kill YOURSELF, dumbass ________________________________________ _______________________________________ Get the point? Hope so. After 2 weeks I had enough. I went into the woods and shot and killed a squirrel,after cutting its tail to take to the taxidermist to be an ass, I saw it twitch, naturally I kept stabbing it until it's head fell off and was 100% dead. After killing it I just started at it. "I will shoot it in the head next time hell I'll cut its head off, I'm not letting this bitch stay a whole body ". After having the guy who I gave the tails to scorned me for cutting half the body off yelled at me, I walked home, and sat down on the floor in my room and started crying with some juice in my hand. I just laid down and cried. Then a weird thing happened, I saw a dead roach, it was long dead abs was under my bed, I just started laughing like the fucking dumbass I was. Instead of telling the heartwarming cheesy ass story of my family getting me help, I'll tell the story about the Roach, I've realized maybe not everything us hopeless shit, but I'm not out of the woods yet..